So yesterday there was no progress—Denver and Poncho ate up most of the day. They did well, though, and we had some time to relax in the afternoon, so that was a goodness.
Today went a bit slowly. I'm wrestling with dialogue, something I've always been terrible with—so, of course, my novel is full of it. I am attempting to figure out how to avoid the clunkiness that arises, the odd, stilted nature of my exchanges; coupled with a more archaic style of diction, it's often messy. I've been reading Tolkien and LeGuin again, to see how they accomplish so much passage of information with such a minimum of dialogue, and almost all of that of a natural timbre.
To that end, I worked through one sticky place with the old-fashioned paper and ink, which is slow going but often leads to more insights than the cold glow of electrons. (It also gives my eyes a break from staring at the screen). So my output today was relatively low, but it's useful stuff, I think.
With any luck, I'll be taking a little hike in the morning tomorrow before I jump in. This will either be inspiring, or it will ruin me. We shall see.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Smackdown
Man. Today was tough. The excitement from yesterday was kind of missing this morning. I'm not sure if it's due to lack of sleep (Born Dancin' was up in the middle of the night for unknown reasons, and I am the Baby-Minder General at night), or depressing news stories I read this morning (I probably shouldn't read the news at all before I write), or annoying school matters that keep haunting me (in the form of student e-mails asking why they got the grade they inevitably did). As I'm moving into a section of more dramatic revision on a part of the novel I've never been at all happy with, I think I'm also putting too much emphasis on getting the language just right the first time through. On top of all that, I'm forcing myself to go through the novel from beginning to end because it's so ugly integrating all the random scenes I came up with during NaNoWriMo. It's a good thing, but means that I can't just skip somewhere else when the slog gets tough.
At any rate, tomorrow I'm not sure if I'll get to write much at all—Denver and Poncho have appointments in the morning to get cavities filled, and who knows how that will all end up. (On that note, if there's anyone we know and love out there who wants to watch Born Dancin' tomorrow at 7:30am, you'd be an answer to prayer.) My goal is to try to get into the novel again at some point tomorrow, if only to keep the momentum up.
I'm off home.
At any rate, tomorrow I'm not sure if I'll get to write much at all—Denver and Poncho have appointments in the morning to get cavities filled, and who knows how that will all end up. (On that note, if there's anyone we know and love out there who wants to watch Born Dancin' tomorrow at 7:30am, you'd be an answer to prayer.) My goal is to try to get into the novel again at some point tomorrow, if only to keep the momentum up.
I'm off home.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Stealing Time
It's been a strange, wonderful day. The writing went well this morning--I worked for about four hours and cranked out about 3,000 words. I know I can get out 2,000 words an hour when I'm in a go-for-broke, write-down-anything-that-pops-into-my-head gear (as I was for the entirety of the NaNoWriMo competition), but right now I'm revising original material so it takes a lot longer. I'll be revising, splicing together the scenes from the two NaNoWriMo efforts, and writing new material, so the count is going to be jumpy. I think I've settled on the idea of spending at least four hours a day on this, if not six. My ideal is to get up at 5am (the same time I rose for my 7am class this past semester), get writing by 6, and work until noon on the novel. Today I got a bit of a late start, but it still went well, and was probably a good chance to ease myself into the process.
The time issue is one that threw me off today. Whenever I was writing for NaNoWriMo, I was always stealing time from grading, or other menial work for school, or shirking some responsibility at home. My brain and my heart still haven't adjusted to thinking this is really, truly, time to write, and that I don't have to feel guilty for doing it. Ideally I'll settle in to feeling like this really is my job and not just a guilty pleasure soon. (Though I wouldn't mind feeling like it was a guilty pleasure all the time...)
It was fascinating to immerse myself in Leaf's world again. (For those outside of the loop, Leaf is the main character of the novel I'm working on.) I was worried it might be dry after more than a month without working poking at it, and even longer since the serious work last November, but it all came back and I was there. I've found I have to kind of sink into the world and let it percolate to get the writing going well. I'm still working on really getting a unique feel for the setting, but that's coming along.
One last note before I head home: I'm writing this from The Bus Stop, a coffee shop in Running Springs (for those in the know, it's where the old Manic Man coffee shop was, and whatever other name it had before that). I'd been putting off coming here, sticking with my standby, the Grounds for Enjoyment shop on Highland Ave. at the bottom of the mountain. I am sorry, now, I didn't come here earlier. It's terrifically cute (I'm at a wee table next to a paisly overstuffed couch with a little cast-iron stove behind me), the staff is tremendously friendly (and said they didn't mind at all that I would be parked here for hours every day, as long as I mentioned them in the acknowledgements of the book), the coffee is great, and the wireless is free. Plus a few folk from our bible study come here for a "gospel jam" open-mic session every Sunday night. If you're local, come give these folks your business.
The time issue is one that threw me off today. Whenever I was writing for NaNoWriMo, I was always stealing time from grading, or other menial work for school, or shirking some responsibility at home. My brain and my heart still haven't adjusted to thinking this is really, truly, time to write, and that I don't have to feel guilty for doing it. Ideally I'll settle in to feeling like this really is my job and not just a guilty pleasure soon. (Though I wouldn't mind feeling like it was a guilty pleasure all the time...)
It was fascinating to immerse myself in Leaf's world again. (For those outside of the loop, Leaf is the main character of the novel I'm working on.) I was worried it might be dry after more than a month without working poking at it, and even longer since the serious work last November, but it all came back and I was there. I've found I have to kind of sink into the world and let it percolate to get the writing going well. I'm still working on really getting a unique feel for the setting, but that's coming along.
One last note before I head home: I'm writing this from The Bus Stop, a coffee shop in Running Springs (for those in the know, it's where the old Manic Man coffee shop was, and whatever other name it had before that). I'd been putting off coming here, sticking with my standby, the Grounds for Enjoyment shop on Highland Ave. at the bottom of the mountain. I am sorry, now, I didn't come here earlier. It's terrifically cute (I'm at a wee table next to a paisly overstuffed couch with a little cast-iron stove behind me), the staff is tremendously friendly (and said they didn't mind at all that I would be parked here for hours every day, as long as I mentioned them in the acknowledgements of the book), the coffee is great, and the wireless is free. Plus a few folk from our bible study come here for a "gospel jam" open-mic session every Sunday night. If you're local, come give these folks your business.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
The Journey Begins
I almost called this post "The Experiment Begins," but that would indicate that the next two and a half months would be some kind of oddball attempt at something, a stab at a half-baked idea that might or might not pan out. Yet what I propose to do is nothing less than start the work for which I believe I've been formed for the last thirty-four years or so.
For the first time since I started teaching, I do not have to work summer school. With the blessing of my ever-generous wife, this is the Summer of the Beginning of the Writing (which doesn't roll trippingly off the tongue, so I'll have to come up with another title—or perhaps I'm making too much of this already). I'm not sure exactly to what standard I'll be working—whether I'll attempt to crank out a certain number of words or pages per day, or if I'll simply work for a set number of hours. I'm leaning heavily toward the latter, because I'll be doing a good bit of revision on my novel and sometimes that is slow work. But we've agreed that this will be my "job" and that the writing time will be sacrosanct.
I'm in a good place for this and I have confidence it will be a success, but I'm reaching out to you, the vast horde of my reading audience. Any who'd care to lift a prayer on my behalf—for inspiration, motivation, and dedication. I'm going to try to keep a short log here about my daily progress here, so feel free to check in and drop a note to encourage, to question, or browbeat me as the situation warrants. It'd be much appreciated.
Off I go...
For the first time since I started teaching, I do not have to work summer school. With the blessing of my ever-generous wife, this is the Summer of the Beginning of the Writing (which doesn't roll trippingly off the tongue, so I'll have to come up with another title—or perhaps I'm making too much of this already). I'm not sure exactly to what standard I'll be working—whether I'll attempt to crank out a certain number of words or pages per day, or if I'll simply work for a set number of hours. I'm leaning heavily toward the latter, because I'll be doing a good bit of revision on my novel and sometimes that is slow work. But we've agreed that this will be my "job" and that the writing time will be sacrosanct.
I'm in a good place for this and I have confidence it will be a success, but I'm reaching out to you, the vast horde of my reading audience. Any who'd care to lift a prayer on my behalf—for inspiration, motivation, and dedication. I'm going to try to keep a short log here about my daily progress here, so feel free to check in and drop a note to encourage, to question, or browbeat me as the situation warrants. It'd be much appreciated.
Off I go...
Friday, April 27, 2007
Because of Guilt
And because the other cool kids are doing it, here's my "Visual DNA":
I'll put up a real post soon, Lord willing. Thanks for stopping by.
I'll put up a real post soon, Lord willing. Thanks for stopping by.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Another 7/10 of a Percent!
It's been a bit—last week I was grading like a maddened yak trying to get caught up before the break, and this week is The Break. We had a lovely visit with the young Eldeviks on Friday in their sweet little house (and its gigantic yard, perfect for children save for the excessive proliferation of Spiny Death Cacti—John has a strange sense of humor), and Saturday was all about visiting Granny Mel and Bud whom we've not seen for many a long month.
I had planned on doing a day hike on Monday to kick the break off, but once again my more-wonderful-than-could-be-expected wife offered more than I asked—she sent me off on Sunday afternoon. So my plans changed from hiking the Silverwood to I-15 PCT segment to something I've wanted to do since the start: hike down off the mountain completely. So I set off from Cedar Glen and made it down to Summit Valley by the next day--about 20 miles in 23 hours. (Hence the title of this post—my 20 miles is aboutt .7% of the 2,650 mile length.)
My goal was to really see how far I could hike in one day, since hiking the full PCT will often call upon the hiker to do 20 or 30 miles in a day. Clearly, I'm still not there. The odd thing is that I somehow think I should be after doing almost no hiking for years and taking on half a dozen treks in the last 9 months. I still didn't quite make my real desire, which was about 25 miles, but it became clear to me at around mile 17 that I had taken on too much. My legs were responding only erratically to my commands, and I was looking at calling for my ride home after the kids' bedtime, so I cut out early. (An apology to the good people at Los Flores Ranch, whose access road I used to get to the highway, and over whose fence I had to clamber to escape.)
Still, the hike itself was beautiful. I got to see Deep Creek again—I hadn't been down there since the early days with the Scouts—and I finally got to see the famous hot springs which I'd often heard about but never seen. (A nice spot, but so overrun by teenagers looking to party that the litter and graffiti are pretty overwhelming.) The winding canyon down the back side of the mountain had everything from thick pine groves to plunging stone cliffs to rolling grass-sided hills to shifting scree slopes, and though it was warm, it wasn't overwhelming.
I told Joanna that if she wants to disabuse me of the Ten-Year Plan, she ought to just let me go hiking more often—by the time I limp in from a trip like this, all I can think is that trekking for five months would be insane when I'm wiped out after two days. I've got physical stamina on my side, and some nice gear, and that's about it.
Ah, well. That's why it's a Ten-Year Plan, I suppose. Right now, I have to get to writing, which is what I'm doing in the mornings during the break. Your prayers on that front are appreciated.
I had planned on doing a day hike on Monday to kick the break off, but once again my more-wonderful-than-could-be-expected wife offered more than I asked—she sent me off on Sunday afternoon. So my plans changed from hiking the Silverwood to I-15 PCT segment to something I've wanted to do since the start: hike down off the mountain completely. So I set off from Cedar Glen and made it down to Summit Valley by the next day--about 20 miles in 23 hours. (Hence the title of this post—my 20 miles is aboutt .7% of the 2,650 mile length.)
My goal was to really see how far I could hike in one day, since hiking the full PCT will often call upon the hiker to do 20 or 30 miles in a day. Clearly, I'm still not there. The odd thing is that I somehow think I should be after doing almost no hiking for years and taking on half a dozen treks in the last 9 months. I still didn't quite make my real desire, which was about 25 miles, but it became clear to me at around mile 17 that I had taken on too much. My legs were responding only erratically to my commands, and I was looking at calling for my ride home after the kids' bedtime, so I cut out early. (An apology to the good people at Los Flores Ranch, whose access road I used to get to the highway, and over whose fence I had to clamber to escape.)
Still, the hike itself was beautiful. I got to see Deep Creek again—I hadn't been down there since the early days with the Scouts—and I finally got to see the famous hot springs which I'd often heard about but never seen. (A nice spot, but so overrun by teenagers looking to party that the litter and graffiti are pretty overwhelming.) The winding canyon down the back side of the mountain had everything from thick pine groves to plunging stone cliffs to rolling grass-sided hills to shifting scree slopes, and though it was warm, it wasn't overwhelming.
I told Joanna that if she wants to disabuse me of the Ten-Year Plan, she ought to just let me go hiking more often—by the time I limp in from a trip like this, all I can think is that trekking for five months would be insane when I'm wiped out after two days. I've got physical stamina on my side, and some nice gear, and that's about it.
Ah, well. That's why it's a Ten-Year Plan, I suppose. Right now, I have to get to writing, which is what I'm doing in the mornings during the break. Your prayers on that front are appreciated.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Me Want Grading Be Done
It's affecting me to the point that I've apparently lost my ability to use subject pronouns correctly, and I'm leaving out possessives and the first half of infinitives to boot.
I'm trying to get caught up on grading before Spring Break next week. We'll be trying to do some work around the house, and I'm also hoping to do some writing work each morning. If I'm to do that, I have to get the school work done now, or my time will all be eaten up with that. However, we're also hip-deep in scholarship season, so I've got some hundred or so applications to read and take notes on for the daily two-hour meetings all this week.
And then I've got to plow a field full of snakes. Man.
I was recalling this morning that my posts used to be, you know, interesting. Or at least amusing. I'm not spending an hour at a shot on them any more, which is probably a good thing, but it seems I just pop on here to blurt out some drivel about what daily tasks I'm working on and then scarper. I thought that posting something would be better than posting nothing, but I'm beginning to think that that may have been a miscalculation.
A lot of philosophy and wit and poetry are going on in my head, really. They're just not coming out in the blog, or much of anywhere else.
All right—it's back into the dark, deadly wilderness of online papers. May I have the power to defeat them!
I'm trying to get caught up on grading before Spring Break next week. We'll be trying to do some work around the house, and I'm also hoping to do some writing work each morning. If I'm to do that, I have to get the school work done now, or my time will all be eaten up with that. However, we're also hip-deep in scholarship season, so I've got some hundred or so applications to read and take notes on for the daily two-hour meetings all this week.
And then I've got to plow a field full of snakes. Man.
I was recalling this morning that my posts used to be, you know, interesting. Or at least amusing. I'm not spending an hour at a shot on them any more, which is probably a good thing, but it seems I just pop on here to blurt out some drivel about what daily tasks I'm working on and then scarper. I thought that posting something would be better than posting nothing, but I'm beginning to think that that may have been a miscalculation.
A lot of philosophy and wit and poetry are going on in my head, really. They're just not coming out in the blog, or much of anywhere else.
All right—it's back into the dark, deadly wilderness of online papers. May I have the power to defeat them!
Friday, March 09, 2007
Tents and Truths
On Tents: I think I'm in love. And no, this isn't a threat to my dear wife.
I'm always perusing the journals of people taking on the PCT thru-hike (I must admit that every time I write the word "thru," my lip curls in annoyance, due to the vast percentage of my students who spell it like that in all circumstances. My hands are tied in this case--that's how the name is written), checking out what they've gone through and how the hike changed them (and if they made it at all). At this point in the year, most folks are preparing for the start in April or early May. One of the favorite bits of information is the gear list, wherein the potential hiker lists what he will be carrying. If you're interested in this sort of thing, you can read some of the journals here.
At any rate, one of the hikers mentioned her deep and abiding devotion to her tarptent. Holy cow! The testimonials are pretty convincing, and the thought of having a good, solid shelter for under three pounds and which can be compressed to the size of a softball is fantastic. If I were going solo, I'd be looking at the Contrail (one and a half pounds!), but the Cloudburst 2 is probably where I'm headed. One for Joanna and I, and maybe a Rainshadow 2 for the kids...
I probably spend far too much brainpower thinking about a journey I'll most likely be making ten years from now. As the basis for my non-fiction book, a modern-day pilgrimmage, it has a powerful draw on my psyche. Some day, O mighty trail... some day.
On Truths: On the way into preschool this morning, the boys and I were discussing how it is a good thing to try new food. Denver is the more adventuresome eater at this point, generally trying things at least once. (Oddly, he invariably tastes something and claims that it is delicious, but when more is offered he refuses it utterly. Weird kid.) Poncho, on the other hand, lives on string cheese, crackers, and peanut butter. Getting him to eat an apple can be a trial.
At any rate, I was congratulating Denver on his bravery, and encouraging Poncho for his small steps (he tried cheese pizza the other day and is very proud of this fact). As we were walking into the classroom, he said seriously, "If you love God, you will go to heaven, even if you don't try new foods." I had to heartily agree.
I'm always perusing the journals of people taking on the PCT thru-hike (I must admit that every time I write the word "thru," my lip curls in annoyance, due to the vast percentage of my students who spell it like that in all circumstances. My hands are tied in this case--that's how the name is written), checking out what they've gone through and how the hike changed them (and if they made it at all). At this point in the year, most folks are preparing for the start in April or early May. One of the favorite bits of information is the gear list, wherein the potential hiker lists what he will be carrying. If you're interested in this sort of thing, you can read some of the journals here.
At any rate, one of the hikers mentioned her deep and abiding devotion to her tarptent. Holy cow! The testimonials are pretty convincing, and the thought of having a good, solid shelter for under three pounds and which can be compressed to the size of a softball is fantastic. If I were going solo, I'd be looking at the Contrail (one and a half pounds!), but the Cloudburst 2 is probably where I'm headed. One for Joanna and I, and maybe a Rainshadow 2 for the kids...
I probably spend far too much brainpower thinking about a journey I'll most likely be making ten years from now. As the basis for my non-fiction book, a modern-day pilgrimmage, it has a powerful draw on my psyche. Some day, O mighty trail... some day.
On Truths: On the way into preschool this morning, the boys and I were discussing how it is a good thing to try new food. Denver is the more adventuresome eater at this point, generally trying things at least once. (Oddly, he invariably tastes something and claims that it is delicious, but when more is offered he refuses it utterly. Weird kid.) Poncho, on the other hand, lives on string cheese, crackers, and peanut butter. Getting him to eat an apple can be a trial.
At any rate, I was congratulating Denver on his bravery, and encouraging Poncho for his small steps (he tried cheese pizza the other day and is very proud of this fact). As we were walking into the classroom, he said seriously, "If you love God, you will go to heaven, even if you don't try new foods." I had to heartily agree.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Journeys of the Heart
Sounds melodramatic, doesn't it?
I went on Saturday for a drive to have some alone time with God. I drove up through Wrightwood. I had never been before, which seems odd as I've lived in this place over 30 years and they're just the mountain next door. Wrightwood itself wasn't too spectacular (those of you in the know, think Running Springs but without the charm), and there was a fair amount of traffic headed for the Mountain High ski resort. However, just up the highway the valley opens out to present spectacular views—Phelan and the Mojave dim and distant to the north, the great valleys of the San Gabriels to the south. The highway ends not far past the ski resort, as most of it fell off the mountain during the heavy rains of a few years ago. However, I did find the spots where the Pacific Crest Trail crosses the highway, and walked along a bit from here to find a spot from which to take in all this grandeur. (If you zoom in on the map, you'll see a forest road leading to the right on the photo, NF-3N06; just above it a dirt trail leads up the crest of the hill. That's the PCT; follow it along to the first large tree—that's what I was sitting under.) I toted along my bible, a truck blanket, and the green brimmed beanie I got for Christmas (which Caleb has dubbed my "boo-boo hat" because of the small red cross logo). I sat under a spreading pine, the wind chorusing through the branches and shaking off large chunks of ice to rain down into the scree pile at my feet. It was a good time of prayer and thinking, but didn't clear up any of my current confusion. An issue upon which I need to meditate and with which I need to wrestle further.
On Friday, an appraiser came to look at our house, so it was a day filled with frantic cleaning and repair. It's always a bit nerve-wracking to have someone come in and judge your home; now we just have the wait to find out what value he sets, which in turn will determine how our current refinancing venture will go and what our budget looks like for the future. The good news is, if this goes through (Lord willing), we'll pay off all our credit card debt and our car loon in one swell foop (that last reference was for you, Slater).
Otherwise, only grading lies ahead. Endlessly. Forever and ever...
Well, not really. But it seems that way.
I went on Saturday for a drive to have some alone time with God. I drove up through Wrightwood. I had never been before, which seems odd as I've lived in this place over 30 years and they're just the mountain next door. Wrightwood itself wasn't too spectacular (those of you in the know, think Running Springs but without the charm), and there was a fair amount of traffic headed for the Mountain High ski resort. However, just up the highway the valley opens out to present spectacular views—Phelan and the Mojave dim and distant to the north, the great valleys of the San Gabriels to the south. The highway ends not far past the ski resort, as most of it fell off the mountain during the heavy rains of a few years ago. However, I did find the spots where the Pacific Crest Trail crosses the highway, and walked along a bit from here to find a spot from which to take in all this grandeur. (If you zoom in on the map, you'll see a forest road leading to the right on the photo, NF-3N06; just above it a dirt trail leads up the crest of the hill. That's the PCT; follow it along to the first large tree—that's what I was sitting under.) I toted along my bible, a truck blanket, and the green brimmed beanie I got for Christmas (which Caleb has dubbed my "boo-boo hat" because of the small red cross logo). I sat under a spreading pine, the wind chorusing through the branches and shaking off large chunks of ice to rain down into the scree pile at my feet. It was a good time of prayer and thinking, but didn't clear up any of my current confusion. An issue upon which I need to meditate and with which I need to wrestle further.
On Friday, an appraiser came to look at our house, so it was a day filled with frantic cleaning and repair. It's always a bit nerve-wracking to have someone come in and judge your home; now we just have the wait to find out what value he sets, which in turn will determine how our current refinancing venture will go and what our budget looks like for the future. The good news is, if this goes through (Lord willing), we'll pay off all our credit card debt and our car loon in one swell foop (that last reference was for you, Slater).
Otherwise, only grading lies ahead. Endlessly. Forever and ever...
Well, not really. But it seems that way.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Weird
A great deal has been going on, and yet I've neither the time nor the brainpower to talk about any particular aspect in detail. Some highlights from the past month or so:
—Still coming down off the birthday thing. Actually, I'm talking with the good folks over at Freeform Games about turning the extra characters I worked up into an "expansion pack" for the party, so that's fun. Now if only I can get the time to get on that...
—Went on a day hike with young Dan last weekend, which was a bunch of fun. A beautiful puppy showed up early on and went along with us for the whole trip (about six miles). She was a great dog, and I was sorry to have to return her to the spot she joined us. Our hike was along the shores of Lake Silverwood, along the Pacific Crest Trail, and the weather was beautiful. This brings my total miles hiked on the PCT up to about 32--which is about 1.2% of the total trail. Impressive stuff.
I also got to test out my nifty new camping stove (the MSR Dragonfly, which I picked up for my birthday) for more than just boiling water. It makes fine Spam, mushroom, and pepper scrambled eggs—hooray for precise flame control.
—Got to see my sister a few times, as she was back to finalize the sale of her old house. I spent a couple of days cleaning out the odds and ends she and her roommate left behind before escrow closed—a tiring and surreal experience. Another link to the southland severed.
—Picked up and have been reading voraciously Eldredge's latest, The Way of the Wild Heart, which has grabbed my heart and my head nearly as much as Wild at Heart did, and I think this one may have at least as much to unpack. Blame Skaggs for bringing it up—I certainly do. A good thing, but it's put me in a strange philosophical place. A lot of prayer and soul-searching and questioning going on. Perhaps that's part of why this post is so strange.
—Sent off an audio demo to the good people at Blackstone Audio, but I haven't heard back anything yet. That's another matter for prayer—it would be a lot of fun, but I don't know which way to lean on that one.
—Big things may be moving in my life, and the life of my delightful, patient, understanding, brave family. We'll see.
So there you are. Not much coherent. But then again, neither am I much these days.
Weird, I tell you.
—Still coming down off the birthday thing. Actually, I'm talking with the good folks over at Freeform Games about turning the extra characters I worked up into an "expansion pack" for the party, so that's fun. Now if only I can get the time to get on that...
—Went on a day hike with young Dan last weekend, which was a bunch of fun. A beautiful puppy showed up early on and went along with us for the whole trip (about six miles). She was a great dog, and I was sorry to have to return her to the spot she joined us. Our hike was along the shores of Lake Silverwood, along the Pacific Crest Trail, and the weather was beautiful. This brings my total miles hiked on the PCT up to about 32--which is about 1.2% of the total trail. Impressive stuff.
I also got to test out my nifty new camping stove (the MSR Dragonfly, which I picked up for my birthday) for more than just boiling water. It makes fine Spam, mushroom, and pepper scrambled eggs—hooray for precise flame control.
—Got to see my sister a few times, as she was back to finalize the sale of her old house. I spent a couple of days cleaning out the odds and ends she and her roommate left behind before escrow closed—a tiring and surreal experience. Another link to the southland severed.
—Picked up and have been reading voraciously Eldredge's latest, The Way of the Wild Heart, which has grabbed my heart and my head nearly as much as Wild at Heart did, and I think this one may have at least as much to unpack. Blame Skaggs for bringing it up—I certainly do. A good thing, but it's put me in a strange philosophical place. A lot of prayer and soul-searching and questioning going on. Perhaps that's part of why this post is so strange.
—Sent off an audio demo to the good people at Blackstone Audio, but I haven't heard back anything yet. That's another matter for prayer—it would be a lot of fun, but I don't know which way to lean on that one.
—Big things may be moving in my life, and the life of my delightful, patient, understanding, brave family. We'll see.
So there you are. Not much coherent. But then again, neither am I much these days.
Weird, I tell you.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
The Whole Shebang
The time has come to share the results of the grand murder party, Court in the Act! It took some time to recover, as well as to get the photos uploaded to the web so I could get them over here. Good luck if you're on dial-up; this page may be loading all night.
For those who did not attend, the party took place at the court of Queen Elizabeth in a loosely historical Renaissance extravaganza. I was Thomas Radclyffe, the Lord Chamberlain and host, and Joanna did an amazing job as the Mistress of the Robes (the head of the ladies-in-waiting) and kept the table full of deliciousness throughout the night. Explorers vied for attention, courtiers vied for the queen's hand, and plotters vied for the throne. Intrigue was rampant. Before the end of the evening an ambassador lay dead, several nobles were sent to the Tower of London, and the Spanish Armada successfully invaded and conquered England--so it was a busy night, as you can imagine. The costuming was amazing across the board, and I think a fine time was had by all. I said at the time that I knew I was loved when 32 people would put on silly costumes and come play pretend for an evening, some having had to fly in for the privelege...
Some group shots to start things off:
Here the Queen is deep in conference with her Master of the Armory, Sir Henry Lee. Looking on is that dashing seaman, Sir Francis Drake. Ingrid, our Queen, took to imperious power like a fish to water.
Here several ladies--Lady Anne Cecil, Jane Dee, and Anne Vavasour--are deep in contemplation. There was a lot of paperwork to keep track of, and some studious review before the start was wise. So was holding on to your character reference material throughout the night (right, Budzik???).
Christopher Marlowe chats amiably with his chief rival, William Shakespeare (the thing behind the curly mop and the hat there). Mistress Hobbs, the sweet and loyal servingwoman, looks on with bemusement.
The Council of Four: Lee, the Spanish Ambassador Juan Futin da Greve, Sir Francis Walsingham, and Andrew Prim, Archbishop of York (for bonus points, try to guess which one is the archbishop!).
The captive Mary, Queen of Scots tells her sad tale to the sympathetic ear of another misunderstood nobleman, Prince Phillipe of France (the most foppish Frenchman ever, if that's even possible).
Elenor von Wallachia, a visiting lady from the Germanies. She spoke very little during the evening, but she had a delightful laugh, which made her possibly the best player of the night.
Our hostess and her real-life sister as Lady Jane Seymour. No one knows what they're laughing about here, and that's probably for the best. They've refused to reveal the secret--those irascible Court ladies!
The hairy beast that is Shakespeare (note the cool Goth fingernail polish there--what a drama queen) exchanges artistic comment with Levina Teerlinc, the royal Court painter. Meanwhile, Lord Robert Dudley is seducing yet another of his many lady-friends in the background...
Dr. John Dee, deep in contemplation of his Enochian texts. During this deep study, Dr. Dee's wife was off looking for a new man, his assistant was off seeking to make a quick shilling off the doctor's good reputation, and the Spanish Cardinal was off telling everyone that Dr. Dee was a madman, a sorcerer, and probably the murderer...
A couple of shots to try to capture the fullness of the assembled crowd at the close of the evening. The left half of the Cast...
... and the right. Several folks still did not fit into the frame--I should have gotten one group shot, but everyone had been so patient I hated to punish them further. There were some swords in the crowd, after all.
Some individual shots to cap things off:
I don't think anyone got more laughs than our delightful, effete Shakespeare, here in his fully glory. My favorite line of the night: "Some people say I'm the best playwright in England, but I wouldn't say that. Oh, look! There's Christopher Marlowe, the second best playwright in England! And I really mean that. How droll!"
The often unnoticed but always busy Irishman Edward Kelley, here with Lady Elenor. Note she is still laughing...
Mistress Nagel, the "other" servingwoman, alternately forming workers' unions and blackmailing the nobility. She had many names throughout the evening, most of which are unprintable here.
Mary of Scots, at her most innocent. This was approximately the expression she was wearing thirty seconds before Elizabeth had her removed to the Tower for plotting treason...
Elizabeth Gloriana in all her regalia. She commanded the Court with aplomb, keeping both her foes and her advisors guessing constantly, and pulled a few tricks that made the Chamberlain sweat.
Wizened, cautious old counselor to the Queen, Lord Canning. (It was more convincing with the huge grey beard you could lose a badger in, trust me. Deb was terrific in the part.)
It's Nell! Pronounced "Neil"; his parents were not good spellers. Dale stepped into this part at the last minute and ended up winning the "Best Character" competition--mainly based on looks like this one. The vote might have gone differently had he revealed more freely his past as a "rent boy."
Prince Phillipe, doing one of the little moves that made everyone look at him oddly all evening. Another of those great Shakespearean "girl-disguised-as-boy-fools-everyone" roles fulfilled admirably by sweet Anna.
The ambassador and the court painter, real-life sweethearts. Constance and Dave overcame the fact that I initially totally forgot to invite them and they filled in for others who couldn't attend at the last minute. Bravo, indeed.
Lord Robert the Absentminded. A brilliant strategist, save that he left all his secrets written down in a handy little stack early in the evening. He still managed pretty well, so that's a tribute to him. He owes me now, though.
Edward de Vere and his wife, Anne Cecil. Many couples were chosen on the basis of how amusing their height differences would be, and this one went spectacularly well. I am only sad I missed the moment when Christina pinned Aaron against the wall and intimidated him into revealing his indiscretions. Of course, if you know Christina at all, this is entirely plausible.
England's spymaster extraordinaire, Sir Francis Walsingham. Ernie was so good at this that he was nearly running most of the event. I liked his summary of his experience: "I failed at all seven of my goals and I had a ball doing it."
The brave and dangerous Sir Walter Raleigh. Watching him defend the magnificent treasure he had brought back from the New World--the much-maligned "Potato," the vegetable Philosopher's Stone--and hold his own against the wily Drake, and somehow evade responsibility for the disappearance of the Roanoke Colony was a wonder to behold.
The Old Guard did a fine job of holding their own, as well. Archbishop Prim and Katherine Ashley (Joanna's real-life parents) made great costumes and survived the strangeness of my friends. Meanwhile, my father hated every minute as Cardinal Diego Menendez de Aviles and had to be wrestled out of his costume by the end of the night. I'm glad my friends survived the strangeness of my dad.
Finally, your Host and Hostess for the evening. What a handsome couple!
We had tremendous fun, and I'm hoping to do something similar next year--so those of you many miles away, mark your calendars now. As I said in an e-mail to the participants, I was encouraged to make the costuming as difficult as possible, so it may be set in Ancient Babylon, or Feudal Japan--though I have received a lot of positive encouragement for my idea of a Mexican wrestling murder party...
Just call me El Mysterioso Blanco!
For those who did not attend, the party took place at the court of Queen Elizabeth in a loosely historical Renaissance extravaganza. I was Thomas Radclyffe, the Lord Chamberlain and host, and Joanna did an amazing job as the Mistress of the Robes (the head of the ladies-in-waiting) and kept the table full of deliciousness throughout the night. Explorers vied for attention, courtiers vied for the queen's hand, and plotters vied for the throne. Intrigue was rampant. Before the end of the evening an ambassador lay dead, several nobles were sent to the Tower of London, and the Spanish Armada successfully invaded and conquered England--so it was a busy night, as you can imagine. The costuming was amazing across the board, and I think a fine time was had by all. I said at the time that I knew I was loved when 32 people would put on silly costumes and come play pretend for an evening, some having had to fly in for the privelege...
Some group shots to start things off:
Here the Queen is deep in conference with her Master of the Armory, Sir Henry Lee. Looking on is that dashing seaman, Sir Francis Drake. Ingrid, our Queen, took to imperious power like a fish to water.
Here several ladies--Lady Anne Cecil, Jane Dee, and Anne Vavasour--are deep in contemplation. There was a lot of paperwork to keep track of, and some studious review before the start was wise. So was holding on to your character reference material throughout the night (right, Budzik???).
Christopher Marlowe chats amiably with his chief rival, William Shakespeare (the thing behind the curly mop and the hat there). Mistress Hobbs, the sweet and loyal servingwoman, looks on with bemusement.
The Council of Four: Lee, the Spanish Ambassador Juan Futin da Greve, Sir Francis Walsingham, and Andrew Prim, Archbishop of York (for bonus points, try to guess which one is the archbishop!).
The captive Mary, Queen of Scots tells her sad tale to the sympathetic ear of another misunderstood nobleman, Prince Phillipe of France (the most foppish Frenchman ever, if that's even possible).
Elenor von Wallachia, a visiting lady from the Germanies. She spoke very little during the evening, but she had a delightful laugh, which made her possibly the best player of the night.
Our hostess and her real-life sister as Lady Jane Seymour. No one knows what they're laughing about here, and that's probably for the best. They've refused to reveal the secret--those irascible Court ladies!
The hairy beast that is Shakespeare (note the cool Goth fingernail polish there--what a drama queen) exchanges artistic comment with Levina Teerlinc, the royal Court painter. Meanwhile, Lord Robert Dudley is seducing yet another of his many lady-friends in the background...
Dr. John Dee, deep in contemplation of his Enochian texts. During this deep study, Dr. Dee's wife was off looking for a new man, his assistant was off seeking to make a quick shilling off the doctor's good reputation, and the Spanish Cardinal was off telling everyone that Dr. Dee was a madman, a sorcerer, and probably the murderer...
A couple of shots to try to capture the fullness of the assembled crowd at the close of the evening. The left half of the Cast...
... and the right. Several folks still did not fit into the frame--I should have gotten one group shot, but everyone had been so patient I hated to punish them further. There were some swords in the crowd, after all.
Some individual shots to cap things off:
I don't think anyone got more laughs than our delightful, effete Shakespeare, here in his fully glory. My favorite line of the night: "Some people say I'm the best playwright in England, but I wouldn't say that. Oh, look! There's Christopher Marlowe, the second best playwright in England! And I really mean that. How droll!"
The often unnoticed but always busy Irishman Edward Kelley, here with Lady Elenor. Note she is still laughing...
Mistress Nagel, the "other" servingwoman, alternately forming workers' unions and blackmailing the nobility. She had many names throughout the evening, most of which are unprintable here.
Mary of Scots, at her most innocent. This was approximately the expression she was wearing thirty seconds before Elizabeth had her removed to the Tower for plotting treason...
Elizabeth Gloriana in all her regalia. She commanded the Court with aplomb, keeping both her foes and her advisors guessing constantly, and pulled a few tricks that made the Chamberlain sweat.
Wizened, cautious old counselor to the Queen, Lord Canning. (It was more convincing with the huge grey beard you could lose a badger in, trust me. Deb was terrific in the part.)
It's Nell! Pronounced "Neil"; his parents were not good spellers. Dale stepped into this part at the last minute and ended up winning the "Best Character" competition--mainly based on looks like this one. The vote might have gone differently had he revealed more freely his past as a "rent boy."
Prince Phillipe, doing one of the little moves that made everyone look at him oddly all evening. Another of those great Shakespearean "girl-disguised-as-boy-fools-everyone" roles fulfilled admirably by sweet Anna.
The ambassador and the court painter, real-life sweethearts. Constance and Dave overcame the fact that I initially totally forgot to invite them and they filled in for others who couldn't attend at the last minute. Bravo, indeed.
Lord Robert the Absentminded. A brilliant strategist, save that he left all his secrets written down in a handy little stack early in the evening. He still managed pretty well, so that's a tribute to him. He owes me now, though.
Edward de Vere and his wife, Anne Cecil. Many couples were chosen on the basis of how amusing their height differences would be, and this one went spectacularly well. I am only sad I missed the moment when Christina pinned Aaron against the wall and intimidated him into revealing his indiscretions. Of course, if you know Christina at all, this is entirely plausible.
England's spymaster extraordinaire, Sir Francis Walsingham. Ernie was so good at this that he was nearly running most of the event. I liked his summary of his experience: "I failed at all seven of my goals and I had a ball doing it."
The brave and dangerous Sir Walter Raleigh. Watching him defend the magnificent treasure he had brought back from the New World--the much-maligned "Potato," the vegetable Philosopher's Stone--and hold his own against the wily Drake, and somehow evade responsibility for the disappearance of the Roanoke Colony was a wonder to behold.
The Old Guard did a fine job of holding their own, as well. Archbishop Prim and Katherine Ashley (Joanna's real-life parents) made great costumes and survived the strangeness of my friends. Meanwhile, my father hated every minute as Cardinal Diego Menendez de Aviles and had to be wrestled out of his costume by the end of the night. I'm glad my friends survived the strangeness of my dad.
Finally, your Host and Hostess for the evening. What a handsome couple!
We had tremendous fun, and I'm hoping to do something similar next year--so those of you many miles away, mark your calendars now. As I said in an e-mail to the participants, I was encouraged to make the costuming as difficult as possible, so it may be set in Ancient Babylon, or Feudal Japan--though I have received a lot of positive encouragement for my idea of a Mexican wrestling murder party...
Just call me El Mysterioso Blanco!
Friday, February 02, 2007
Something
Okay, that was just for Kathie.
It's nice to know I'm missed when I'm gone. And yes, it's been a crowded, crazy time of late. The holidays were a whirlwind, and then the new semester was starting, and then I remembered that I have this party coming up, and a giant lump of work to do for it.
The party? Ah, yes. I'm guessing most anyone who reads this was probably invited at some point, but we're throwing a grand murder party for the event. It's a little sad and self-important that I'm arranging and running my own birthday party, but I'm a self-important kind of guy. I'd been wanting to put together another party like Joanna's 30th, so it seemed like a good excuse.
And it worked--we've got about 30 people coming. The murder party set I bought came with parts for 21, so I filled in with the extra characters and rewrote the thing to fit the new folks in and make it more exciting. The company that puts these out, Freeform Games, has some neat ideas and great little gimmicks for the game, but they tend to be unevenly written and occasionally goofy. This one's set at the Court of Queen Elizabeth, and we get to break out all our Renaissance gear--and any game that features my father as a Spanish Cardinal is bound to be entertaining. A big buffet dinner, decorations, and specialized props are all in the mix here.
So that's what I've been doing, O demanding friends. I'll let you know how it went and try to get some good pictures to post. Sorry this is not thrilling, but the crushing guilt was eating away at me, and I had a few moments this morning before the cleaning and prep get going in earnest. Zounds! I must away with me!
It's nice to know I'm missed when I'm gone. And yes, it's been a crowded, crazy time of late. The holidays were a whirlwind, and then the new semester was starting, and then I remembered that I have this party coming up, and a giant lump of work to do for it.
The party? Ah, yes. I'm guessing most anyone who reads this was probably invited at some point, but we're throwing a grand murder party for the event. It's a little sad and self-important that I'm arranging and running my own birthday party, but I'm a self-important kind of guy. I'd been wanting to put together another party like Joanna's 30th, so it seemed like a good excuse.
And it worked--we've got about 30 people coming. The murder party set I bought came with parts for 21, so I filled in with the extra characters and rewrote the thing to fit the new folks in and make it more exciting. The company that puts these out, Freeform Games, has some neat ideas and great little gimmicks for the game, but they tend to be unevenly written and occasionally goofy. This one's set at the Court of Queen Elizabeth, and we get to break out all our Renaissance gear--and any game that features my father as a Spanish Cardinal is bound to be entertaining. A big buffet dinner, decorations, and specialized props are all in the mix here.
So that's what I've been doing, O demanding friends. I'll let you know how it went and try to get some good pictures to post. Sorry this is not thrilling, but the crushing guilt was eating away at me, and I had a few moments this morning before the cleaning and prep get going in earnest. Zounds! I must away with me!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Brought Up Short
I was all set to come in here and update the crowd on our trip to Disneyland over Thanksgiving, or discuss the end-of-the-year madness around here, or even compare various versions of A Christmas Carol in the hopes of steering you toward the good ones, but a strange and sobering event has occured in the meantime that brought me up short, and it's been coloring my world for a couple of days now.
I'm not sure where to begin, because I don't know that I've really come to grips with it myself. During my time in the graduate creative writing program up at Eastern Washington University, I made a dear friend named Sherise. She was warm and generous and brilliant, and we shared a lot during those strange years. When the program ended and we went our ways, it turned out she lived only an hour away from Running Springs, down near Murietta. In fact, she was instrumental in getting me the first adjunct positions I had, setting up interviews and talking me up to the administrators at the schools she was part of--heck, for two of the jobs, I didn't even have to interview; they just said, "Oh, Sherise says you're great," and that was it. She also penned one of my recommendation letters that helped me get my current gig at SBVC.
Over the seven or so years since school, we've kept in touch off and on, getting together occasionally and chatting. She was probably the most devoted instructor I know and was a wizard in the classroom; I learned a lot from her. We fell somewhat out of touch in the last couple of years, but we still spoke occasionally or traded emails. Yesterday I realized it had been nearly a year since we had last spoken, so I sent off an email to check in and see how she and her new husband and her two kids were doing.
But the email bounced back, and when I went to the MSJC website to look up her office number, it wasn't listed. Curious, I dropped her name into Google to see if she had changed schools or gotten out of the teaching game.
What I found was a newspaper article detailing how Sherise had been killed in an automobile collision back in March. I stared at the article for a long time, trying to make it fit in my head, but it wouldn't. I had to find the memorial page describing her funeral and look through the picture gallery and read the guestbook comments to make myself believe this was the same woman I knew.
It felt utterly surreal. My friend--who had shared tea with me every day in her office across the hall from mine, who put me on a writing regimen because she believed in my work, who had sat next to me in endless writing workshops and had the study carrel next to mine in the library--was gone, and I had missed it totally.
I sent an email to the EWU folks who I'm still in contact with to let them know. My old roommate Garrett, wise in these things, said, "This is a good reminder for me of how removed we really are from people, even with e-mail. If any of my long-distance friends were to be in such an accident, there would be no reasonable way for me to know. And because I am so willing myself to let correspondences drag at a glacial pace, it would be literally months and months before I even suspected that something was off. Discovering an online obituary is a particularly harsh form of clarification." Indeed. Far-flung as we are, it's easy to go for a very long time in our insular little worlds. I'm terribly grateful for this little blog network we've got going, though I think I'll be more nervous now if someone doesn't post for a while. (Christina, you're okay, right? Jen?)
So say a prayer for her family during the first Christmas without her. And check in on an old friend this week; better, call up those you love and remind them of that fact. This is going to end up sounding like a Hallmark card if I'm not careful, but we sail through this life as though on untroubled waters when, in truth, we're on rough seas no matter what the horizon may look like from here. I thank God that Sherise knew Him and that she's not lost to us forever, but these losses, even if temporary, are a hard blow for those of us left here.
Be safe out there, kids.
I'm not sure where to begin, because I don't know that I've really come to grips with it myself. During my time in the graduate creative writing program up at Eastern Washington University, I made a dear friend named Sherise. She was warm and generous and brilliant, and we shared a lot during those strange years. When the program ended and we went our ways, it turned out she lived only an hour away from Running Springs, down near Murietta. In fact, she was instrumental in getting me the first adjunct positions I had, setting up interviews and talking me up to the administrators at the schools she was part of--heck, for two of the jobs, I didn't even have to interview; they just said, "Oh, Sherise says you're great," and that was it. She also penned one of my recommendation letters that helped me get my current gig at SBVC.
Over the seven or so years since school, we've kept in touch off and on, getting together occasionally and chatting. She was probably the most devoted instructor I know and was a wizard in the classroom; I learned a lot from her. We fell somewhat out of touch in the last couple of years, but we still spoke occasionally or traded emails. Yesterday I realized it had been nearly a year since we had last spoken, so I sent off an email to check in and see how she and her new husband and her two kids were doing.
But the email bounced back, and when I went to the MSJC website to look up her office number, it wasn't listed. Curious, I dropped her name into Google to see if she had changed schools or gotten out of the teaching game.
What I found was a newspaper article detailing how Sherise had been killed in an automobile collision back in March. I stared at the article for a long time, trying to make it fit in my head, but it wouldn't. I had to find the memorial page describing her funeral and look through the picture gallery and read the guestbook comments to make myself believe this was the same woman I knew.
It felt utterly surreal. My friend--who had shared tea with me every day in her office across the hall from mine, who put me on a writing regimen because she believed in my work, who had sat next to me in endless writing workshops and had the study carrel next to mine in the library--was gone, and I had missed it totally.
I sent an email to the EWU folks who I'm still in contact with to let them know. My old roommate Garrett, wise in these things, said, "This is a good reminder for me of how removed we really are from people, even with e-mail. If any of my long-distance friends were to be in such an accident, there would be no reasonable way for me to know. And because I am so willing myself to let correspondences drag at a glacial pace, it would be literally months and months before I even suspected that something was off. Discovering an online obituary is a particularly harsh form of clarification." Indeed. Far-flung as we are, it's easy to go for a very long time in our insular little worlds. I'm terribly grateful for this little blog network we've got going, though I think I'll be more nervous now if someone doesn't post for a while. (Christina, you're okay, right? Jen?)
So say a prayer for her family during the first Christmas without her. And check in on an old friend this week; better, call up those you love and remind them of that fact. This is going to end up sounding like a Hallmark card if I'm not careful, but we sail through this life as though on untroubled waters when, in truth, we're on rough seas no matter what the horizon may look like from here. I thank God that Sherise knew Him and that she's not lost to us forever, but these losses, even if temporary, are a hard blow for those of us left here.
Be safe out there, kids.
Friday, December 01, 2006
Confessions
The month has done. It is finished. At least, that particular batch of 50,000 words is finished.
However, I must admit I bent the rules a bit.
See, Chris Baty, the guy who came up with this idea in the first place, is pretty insistent in his book No Plot? No Problem! and on the website that you come into the month with no prior writing (other than outlines and such). Half-finished manuscripts are verboten. To wit:
But I am a naughty monkey, and I abandoned this rule after the first day.
I had built a beautiful, grotesque, wonderful vision in my mind of the novel I would write but had purposefully not set anything down about it before the first day. That morning in the Ontario airport, I wrote about two pages of the strangest blather that had ever been carved in electrons via the medium of my fingers on the keyboard. It was weird, wild stuff. At the time, I was almost disgusted by how bizarre it was and began to despair.
Then came Bootcamp NW in Oregon with Skaggs, and a good deal of my time in prayer there was seeking after God, asking, "Do you want me to write? For Your sake, why? And if so, what?" I vowed to hold on like Jacob until I got something like an answer.
And I think I did. I'm pretty sure God tapped me on the shoulder and said, casually, "You're not done with the first one yet."
So this month has actually been comprised of me adding additional material to the Leaf story I began in March. I do not have two 50,000 word novels; I have one 100,000 word novel.
I've still felt kind of guilty, though, so I'm confessing here and now. Forgive me, Chris Baty! I still had a grand time, filled in a lot of gaps in the first draft, came up with a few more scenes that made me choke while I wrote them, and am more confident about the story than I ever was after the first time out. I'm still far from a finished product, and I don't know what will happen with this great, unwieldy, it-all-has-to-be-printed-out-cut-apart-and-reordered-again thing, but it's got some purpose, and that is a happiness.
And I've got some other stuff to write now, too.
So this was fun, but (Lord willing), it's only the beginning.
ps—Having gone back and read that chaotic madness of the first day, it turns out to be not as bad as I had thought. Really, there's some interesting stuff in there. So perhaps one day it may rise again...
However, I must admit I bent the rules a bit.
See, Chris Baty, the guy who came up with this idea in the first place, is pretty insistent in his book No Plot? No Problem! and on the website that you come into the month with no prior writing (other than outlines and such). Half-finished manuscripts are verboten. To wit:
Do I have to start my novel from scratch on November 1?
Yes.
This sounds like a dumb, arbitrary rule, we know. But bringing a half-finished manuscript into NaNoWriMo all but guarantees a miserable month. You'll simply care about the characters and story too much to write with the gleeful, anything-goes approach that makes NaNoWriMo such a creative rush. Give yourself the gift of a clean slate, and you'll tap into realms of imagination and intuition that are out-of-reach when working on pre-existing manuscripts.
But I am a naughty monkey, and I abandoned this rule after the first day.
I had built a beautiful, grotesque, wonderful vision in my mind of the novel I would write but had purposefully not set anything down about it before the first day. That morning in the Ontario airport, I wrote about two pages of the strangest blather that had ever been carved in electrons via the medium of my fingers on the keyboard. It was weird, wild stuff. At the time, I was almost disgusted by how bizarre it was and began to despair.
Then came Bootcamp NW in Oregon with Skaggs, and a good deal of my time in prayer there was seeking after God, asking, "Do you want me to write? For Your sake, why? And if so, what?" I vowed to hold on like Jacob until I got something like an answer.
And I think I did. I'm pretty sure God tapped me on the shoulder and said, casually, "You're not done with the first one yet."
So this month has actually been comprised of me adding additional material to the Leaf story I began in March. I do not have two 50,000 word novels; I have one 100,000 word novel.
I've still felt kind of guilty, though, so I'm confessing here and now. Forgive me, Chris Baty! I still had a grand time, filled in a lot of gaps in the first draft, came up with a few more scenes that made me choke while I wrote them, and am more confident about the story than I ever was after the first time out. I'm still far from a finished product, and I don't know what will happen with this great, unwieldy, it-all-has-to-be-printed-out-cut-apart-and-reordered-again thing, but it's got some purpose, and that is a happiness.
And I've got some other stuff to write now, too.
So this was fun, but (Lord willing), it's only the beginning.
ps—Having gone back and read that chaotic madness of the first day, it turns out to be not as bad as I had thought. Really, there's some interesting stuff in there. So perhaps one day it may rise again...
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Day 30 (Final Word Count: 50,347)
I've got to log off and go kiss my family.
Twice in one year. Booyah!
That is all for now.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Day 28 (Word Count: 43,082)
Two days. 6,918 words. These are all that stand between me and glorious victory.
Some of you may have noticed that the little NaNoWriMo icon over at the left now includes a word counter. If you've been checking in, wondering where I was in the process, that's been keeping track. It'd probably have been more useful for me to point that out earlier.
So the task still before me is utterly managable. Yes, I'm grading papers, but I'm not nearly as behind as usual. Yes, we had the Disney Thanksgiving, during which I wrote maybe a thousand words (but I think writing part of the novel at the Ontario Airport, part in Newberg, Oregon, and part at the Disneyland Hotel qualifies me for some kind of strange prize), and I was standing at 36,000 or so words yesterday morning, but it's all been manageable. Things have opened up for me in a way that I can hardly explain myself. As I've said before, part of me still cowers in fear of the "other shoe" coming down, but that part is growing smaller daily. Yes, there will be setbacks and difficulties aplenty in the days ahead, and I have a strong sense that this is a season of replenishment and reprieve before much greater challenges come to the fore, but I know that God is with me and that He will see me through them.
I was reading through some of my old posts, and my attitude at the moment is so different than those I espoused there that I feel like an entirely different person. And maybe I am. I don't want this to sound boastful, or naive, but it's honestly where I stand today, Christ be praised for it.
I'll try to get some more specifics up in the next day or two. Until then, I've got some more prose-ifying to do.
Some of you may have noticed that the little NaNoWriMo icon over at the left now includes a word counter. If you've been checking in, wondering where I was in the process, that's been keeping track. It'd probably have been more useful for me to point that out earlier.
So the task still before me is utterly managable. Yes, I'm grading papers, but I'm not nearly as behind as usual. Yes, we had the Disney Thanksgiving, during which I wrote maybe a thousand words (but I think writing part of the novel at the Ontario Airport, part in Newberg, Oregon, and part at the Disneyland Hotel qualifies me for some kind of strange prize), and I was standing at 36,000 or so words yesterday morning, but it's all been manageable. Things have opened up for me in a way that I can hardly explain myself. As I've said before, part of me still cowers in fear of the "other shoe" coming down, but that part is growing smaller daily. Yes, there will be setbacks and difficulties aplenty in the days ahead, and I have a strong sense that this is a season of replenishment and reprieve before much greater challenges come to the fore, but I know that God is with me and that He will see me through them.
I was reading through some of my old posts, and my attitude at the moment is so different than those I espoused there that I feel like an entirely different person. And maybe I am. I don't want this to sound boastful, or naive, but it's honestly where I stand today, Christ be praised for it.
I'll try to get some more specifics up in the next day or two. Until then, I've got some more prose-ifying to do.
Friday, November 17, 2006
Day 17 (Word Count: 25,307)
I can't seem to find a rhythm to the writing this time out. Too many things going on in life, too much laziness keeping me from getting onto it during the late-night hours I used to write in. But when I am getting into it, it's going well. I'm more than halfway there (at a few days past when I should have arrived there), and much busy time lies ahead, what with Kathie's visit and our Thanksgiving extravaganza coming up, as well as the end of the semester.
As last time, I am finding this journey to be one of discovery (how cliche of me!)—in this case, I'm finding out that I can write for longer periods and more prolifically than last time. Both of them confirm for me that I can, in fact, write, which I kind of knew and which, nonetheless, I have to be reminded of pretty constantly.
I'm a little scared, though, because I do feel called to this. It's endlessly exciting, of course, but I don't know what form it's supposed to take. That I can wait on, and I'm trying to look at it as an adventure (and succeeding most of the time), but it still feels dangerous, like I've leapt out of a plane and am plummeting toward the ground, not quite positive when I'm supposed to pull the ripcord or even that it's a parachute back there. I do know that I'd like to learn how to write a novel from start to finish—all this jumping about means that, like last time, I have to go back and try to piece the bits together, which is essentially like writing the thing twice. Maybe that comes with practice, or at least more forethought than I've given the thing.
Your continued prayers and thoughts are appreciated. I'm off to go see Wycherly's The Country Wife at CSUSB with my 101 Honors class. There's nothing like a seventeenth-century Restoration comedy to cap off your Friday. I'm sure my students will agree.
As last time, I am finding this journey to be one of discovery (how cliche of me!)—in this case, I'm finding out that I can write for longer periods and more prolifically than last time. Both of them confirm for me that I can, in fact, write, which I kind of knew and which, nonetheless, I have to be reminded of pretty constantly.
I'm a little scared, though, because I do feel called to this. It's endlessly exciting, of course, but I don't know what form it's supposed to take. That I can wait on, and I'm trying to look at it as an adventure (and succeeding most of the time), but it still feels dangerous, like I've leapt out of a plane and am plummeting toward the ground, not quite positive when I'm supposed to pull the ripcord or even that it's a parachute back there. I do know that I'd like to learn how to write a novel from start to finish—all this jumping about means that, like last time, I have to go back and try to piece the bits together, which is essentially like writing the thing twice. Maybe that comes with practice, or at least more forethought than I've given the thing.
Your continued prayers and thoughts are appreciated. I'm off to go see Wycherly's The Country Wife at CSUSB with my 101 Honors class. There's nothing like a seventeenth-century Restoration comedy to cap off your Friday. I'm sure my students will agree.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Day 14 (Word Count: 15,158)
So this word count isn't as high as it's supposed to be, but considering I was sitting at 1,776 until this past Thursday and I didn't manage to write all weekend, it's not too shabby. I think I've found the groove and (Lord willing) can keep up the accelerated pace. I need to be at at least 30,000 words by the 19th when Kathie arrives, or she has vowed not to speak to me...
In other news: the bootcamp with Skaggs went remarkably well. Really, God is taking me into all sorts of new territory these days, and I must admit I'm feeling closer to Him than I have at any point in my life previously. It's kind of delirious and odd, and a part of me is still cowering, waiting for the reversal and the fall that always seem to come to me when I'm feeling good about something. In truth, I think there have been some attacks and some setbacks, but I'm thinking about them differently than I have in the past, which is almost entirely a good thing.
I'm on to reading Eldredge's Waking the Dead, which is proving to be another spiritual ballpeen hammer to the brain. Impressive stuff. I'm in talks now with the men's ministry at church about running a study on Wild at Heart in January, and so far they're supportive. I said before I wasn't an Eldredge groupie—I think maybe I'm becoming one... I'm also reading The Lord of the Rings yet again, as a kind of pump primer for the writing, and the echoes from that are fascinating.
I don't know where this crazy road I'm on is headed, or where it'll take me and my blessedly patient and flexible family, but it's quite the trip.
In other news: the bootcamp with Skaggs went remarkably well. Really, God is taking me into all sorts of new territory these days, and I must admit I'm feeling closer to Him than I have at any point in my life previously. It's kind of delirious and odd, and a part of me is still cowering, waiting for the reversal and the fall that always seem to come to me when I'm feeling good about something. In truth, I think there have been some attacks and some setbacks, but I'm thinking about them differently than I have in the past, which is almost entirely a good thing.
I'm on to reading Eldredge's Waking the Dead, which is proving to be another spiritual ballpeen hammer to the brain. Impressive stuff. I'm in talks now with the men's ministry at church about running a study on Wild at Heart in January, and so far they're supportive. I said before I wasn't an Eldredge groupie—I think maybe I'm becoming one... I'm also reading The Lord of the Rings yet again, as a kind of pump primer for the writing, and the echoes from that are fascinating.
I don't know where this crazy road I'm on is headed, or where it'll take me and my blessedly patient and flexible family, but it's quite the trip.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Day 1 (Word Count: 1776)
It's late and I'm sitting in the Skaggs House in Oregon. My brain is spinning slowly and wanting to escape to the sweet land of Sleepy Sleep. I had much to post here, about life and my journey here and the weekend retreat Sir Skaggs and I are attending starting tomorrow, but I don't think I'm capable of doing so at this point.
I did want to put down my word count. I wrote today sitting in the Ontario Airport in a disused corner. I have no idea what the heck I'm writing, but I got some words down, and that's the important thing.
I shall be gone until at least Sunday, so there may not be much in the way of new wordage in the next few days. A very strange way to start the month off, but such is the way of things.
Good night, ladies.
I did want to put down my word count. I wrote today sitting in the Ontario Airport in a disused corner. I have no idea what the heck I'm writing, but I got some words down, and that's the important thing.
I shall be gone until at least Sunday, so there may not be much in the way of new wordage in the next few days. A very strange way to start the month off, but such is the way of things.
Good night, ladies.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Halloween and My Dream Job
Slater is a devil for putting me on to YouTube.
I never watch the new stuff that goes up—too many weird people doing weird things for my taste. But I do spend entirely too much time watching clips from TV shows I no longer get to see since we kicked television out of our home last time.
Which brings me to the delightful subject of today's post, in the spirit of the upcoming holiday: a clip of "Even Stevphen" from The Daily Show about Halloween. I'm a big fan of both Stephen Colbert and Steve Carell, so this is just a wonder; I laugh every single time I watch this. (It does contain a rude euphemism for "bottom," so don't be too shocked.)
Oh, man.
See, Marilyn? This is why you have to let your eventual children celebrate Halloween. You don't want them to end up like that, do you?
This seems like the dream career for Devin and I—a series of political debates that somehow always descend into vitriolic personal attacks and psychological breakdowns. We would do such a fine job. It was the following clip, however, that really convinced Joanna that this is what young Mr. Parker and I were born to do (in the hidden camera footage, Steve Carell even looks like Devin!):
There are many more fine episodes of "Even Stevphen" on YouTube—this is a good place to start for an overview (a bit more naughty language is present, to warn those of a sensitive constitution).
I never watch the new stuff that goes up—too many weird people doing weird things for my taste. But I do spend entirely too much time watching clips from TV shows I no longer get to see since we kicked television out of our home last time.
Which brings me to the delightful subject of today's post, in the spirit of the upcoming holiday: a clip of "Even Stevphen" from The Daily Show about Halloween. I'm a big fan of both Stephen Colbert and Steve Carell, so this is just a wonder; I laugh every single time I watch this. (It does contain a rude euphemism for "bottom," so don't be too shocked.)
Oh, man.
See, Marilyn? This is why you have to let your eventual children celebrate Halloween. You don't want them to end up like that, do you?
This seems like the dream career for Devin and I—a series of political debates that somehow always descend into vitriolic personal attacks and psychological breakdowns. We would do such a fine job. It was the following clip, however, that really convinced Joanna that this is what young Mr. Parker and I were born to do (in the hidden camera footage, Steve Carell even looks like Devin!):
There are many more fine episodes of "Even Stevphen" on YouTube—this is a good place to start for an overview (a bit more naughty language is present, to warn those of a sensitive constitution).